Give yourself grace…
(Journal Entry #1)
WOW! What a year 2020 was! I think we can all agree that it was not the funnest (bad English) time in our lives. I mean seriously, it was event after event after event and it just seemed like it wouldn’t let up! We had to adapt to a new way of living, we lost a lot of iconic people, some of us even lost our jobs, etc.…… and honestly it sucked.
I never in my 32 years of living, and maybe for you too, have ever experienced something so bad that the church closed. THE CHURCH?! Nah, what in tarnation is going on 2020?! I mean to have no fellowship whatsoever was kind of shocking and weird. Not being able to see our families daily was an eye opener and it just was not cool.
I mean, I wasn’t cool.
I literally had to discontinue my shoe addiction because unemployment wasn’t allowing me to buy sneakers every two weeks. Or learning and understanding the black mother parable, “we got food at home”. Everything was changing and I wasn’t ready.
A new perspective suddenly came over me because I realized I wasn’t truly happy with the life I once knew. Yes, it was comfortable but that’s all it was… comfortable. I looked at my current job and I was miserable. I looked at my relationships and saw how distant they had become. I just really took the time to honestly see that yes, I was living but was I really? I had to step back and reevaluate what mattered. Reevaluate what I wanted to do with my life. Reevaluate how I acted in my relationships. Ultimately realizing that I may have been the problem.
I then took a leap of faith and began building a brand which you now know as Loc’d Faith. I started this blog to tie into the brand. Letting you in on some deep dark issues that I have had. I started talking to people more (even if it was on social media). I started a new ministry journey which is a whole other discussion. But I was trying to be open with life but yet and still felt like I wasn’t doing enough. Then I kept hearing the phrase “GIVE YOURSELF GRACE”.
So, if you’ve been following along, you know that I, Kristyn Brown, am the toughest critic of my own abilities. If I fail once, I quit and I sulk in things and never finish. But I kept hearing the phrase, GIVE YOURSELF GRACE, GIVE YOURSELF GRACE. So, I took a step back and saw that I was doing just fine. I started a business in the middle of a pandemic, I started a weight loss journey in the middle of a pandemic, I started “school” in the middle of a pandemic. Like Kristyn, pat yoself on the back cuz you did that ma’am!
So, I encourage everyone moving forward, that if this year turns out to be the same as it was in 2020, to be easy on yourselves. It’s new and different and it’s okay to not have all the answers. Just remember that this is a process and it’s YOUR process. Always remember to keep your faith loc’d but to ultimately GIVE YOURSELF GRACE!