The Talk (fin.)
Shhhh shhh. Stop crying. Relax.
God, I trusted You!
I know my child. Everything is going to be ok.
You told me that it was him! You gave me Blue’s Clues and everything… I just don’t under…
Calm down. Take a deep breath.
I mean everything that happened… us getting closer, our conversations…
I know.
It just seemed like the time to move! You say that faith without works is dead but then when I move, everything crumbles! Why did You even show me that nonsense?! Now, I’ve lost a good friend and I’m out here like a fool!
I simply asked you to trust me.
Yes, and I said yes!
But your actions never did.
What?! I loc’d my hair. HELLO! BIG commitment…. I started going to church regularly at 7am, which might I add, is extremely early for me AND I even got more involved. Like I don’t understand!
Correct. You don’t understand. And you won’t until I’m ready for you to understand.
I’m so confused! Why must following You be so hard?!
When I gave you the vision of your wedding day I was giving you hope of a beautiful future. Even though I knew how the ropes would pull, I wanted you to see me for who I AM and who I AM to you.
Then why not make it easier on me?! I’m sitting here balling my eyes out AGAIN and I feel like You are never here when I need You. Why didn’t You just tell me what to do so that I wouldn’t have done all of this in between stuff to pass time?!
I don’t have to explain myself but because You still aren’t listening, let me help you. The vision I gave was to show you you and what you could become. I have created you for far more than what you have been settling for. When I created you, I knew your heart was fragile and would ache. How your relationships would come and go. How you would lose sight of me. But none of that mattered because yet and still I have had my hand on you. I saw you before you saw yourself. Instead of chasing this idea, I wanted you to chase me….seek my face and only my face so that you could become all that I have called you to be.
Ok, I get that….kind of. But You know how I am when it comes to relationships and You had me believe that he was the one. I just can’t wrap my brain around how everything just seemed to fall into place only to get broken into pieces. You know I want to believe that relationships can last…. but now I don’t even think I’m worthy of having one. You say that You love me and that I can have the desires of my heart but now I have made a complete fool of myself. And although I don’t want to blame You, I can’t help but to blame You because all of this started because of You.
Kristyn, I didn’t ask you to trust me just to say you trust me. I actually wanted…you…to…trust…me. To finally see what I’ve seen since I created you. I am doing a great work in you and I am preparing you for greatness. Only will I reveal my promise to you when the time is right.
The time was right!
For you.
Wait…
Yea… I let you choose which way you wanted to go. You chose to put your faith in man when you should’ve put your faith in me.
Ummm…
Walk in the purpose I have for you and if you stumble, I will be there to catch your fall. Nothing comes easy when following me but now that I have your attention, I’ll ask again….
Do you trust me?