The Act (part 2)
(Journal Entry #01012020)
Ok, ok.. kinda freakin out here.. what was that?! It looked like… nah. It couldn’t be. I’m not his type and he’s low-key not mine…
Wait, do I even have a type? Well, I do kind of like beards. Wait, wait, wait…
What if though? What if that connection we made years ago was for something bigger? I mean I could kind of see that happening?? Our chemistry is spot on. What if Kris?
I think I need to let him know that it’s me! Like we are meant to be together. Like I just gave up the best relationship I’ve ever had for you…. Yea. Just like that. He needs to know!
Mom, I just had a dream of my husband and I think I know who it is.. what should I do?!
“Well, Praise God! Cuz’ I was prayin!”
Mom… I need real advise, can you help me?!
“Just be cool. If God gave you the vision, it WILL come to past…”
Ok, I’m going to play it cool. In the meantime, I think I need to change my appearance. I mean, he’s known to see me as his bro.. I need to become his sis, then his bae.
How do yall do this?! It may not even be him! Kris, you are trippin!
“Hey, you know. I’m thinking of loc’ing my hair. I got an appointment set up next week”
What he just say?! God, quit playin with me! You know I fall quick at the sight of something. If this is for real, show me a sign.
*more time spent. deep conversations about the future.*
“Our bond needs to be like a marriage.”
Ok, so now I need to kick it in gear. I gotta start dressing the part. Keep a clean house. I can’t have it like GAP Black Friday sale. Clean it up! Put that mascara on your eyes… wait, too much. Get it off your eyelid. Matter of fact try individuals. Yeah. Make them eyes pop girl! Kris, this is your husband, and he needs to know that you are the one God sent for him. Girl, add a lip!
“Hey, I joined a church and I’m trying to get my spirit right”
Lord Jesus in heaven, I know You said You’d prepare me for the blessing but You out here preparing the blessing for me! I see you!
*time passes*
Umm, so I’ve changed and yet and still he hasn’t said anything to me. Like ask me out already! What else do I need to do?!
You know what, I’m going to ask him out. Yup, I’m going to take matters into my own hands.
“Hey, would you be my date to this concert with me?!”
“Yes. I would love to.”
Mom, he said yes!
Dad, do you think I should ask out a guy or should he ask me out?
“Well, who is it?!” …”If you can handle rejection, go for it.”
Sheesh Dad! Ok well, it’s been about 4 years of this on and off so I’m going to ask him because I just believe that God gave me the vision of what is to come. Maybe He wants me to do the work myself.
*sends text*
“Hey, our chemistry is dope and I think it would be even doper if we became a thing. This is me shooting my shot”
“Aw well I appreciate you and love you as my friend, but I don’t see you like that.”
*DELETES CONTACT*